Wow...It's been AGES since I've written here. And I check here maybe even daily, SO WRITE THINGS PEOPLE! I read them, and look forward to reading what others have written. I form responses in my mind as well; I am just sorry that sometimes it gets too hard to do the process of writing and hitting reply...
I have news, and not so good news, and lots and lots of updates, but I will post this story first and then another thread for the rest of it.
One really annoying thing was after about a month of doing rudis perfectly fine EVERY time (including b/s-rudi-b/s), one day I just got up and lost them. So they're a little inconsistant now, but I'm working on it.
Here is something I wrote after last Friday's training (which was the first good one I'd had in a while, say two-three weeks):
Trampolining was so fun tonight. It was such a good training session, which was very relieving, because the last two weeks have been shocking. My back now is a little sore, for the second day in a row, but I think that is from landing double backs funny, and it just needs to be massaged out.
I didn’t feel like training at all today. In fact, I was dreading it. Everything was just getting so hard – all the basic stuff, even just somersaulting – and I was thinking more and more about quitting. Except that would be going against the goal I have to ‘retire’; that is, to finish on MY terms, having accomplished what I wanted, in both competition (or had a chance to), and skill wise. Retirement is so much better than quitting – giving up. How silly would I feel in a few months, especially September, if I’d given up because it was “just too hard”?!?! It comes back to my favourite quote for trampolining
“When you look at a man at the top of a mountain, remember he didn’t fall there.”
To me, that explains and makes me go “dah, silly” that trampolining IS hard. It is meant to be difficult and frustrating, just like that mountain climber’s climb – that was never going to be a perfect journey, and that mountain climber would have prepared for that. He would have had the proper support, food, survival kit, friends and communication, and of course many months of physical preparation. However, with each step he takes, running or walking, he is one step closer to the top, one step closer to achieving his goal. Every time he goes for a run, he is building a base, and building more bricks on his wall. He is careful to plan wisely and train smartly so to keep on building the wall both upwards and outwards, and to never leave holes or gaps or use poor quality concrete so that it would crumble and fall. This quote is encouraging to me, rather than disappointing, because it shows that I have to be realistic in my goals. Climb a smaller mountain before I climb Everest. Push a little harder, jump a little higher, wait a little longer, and think hard about what you are doing. Remember that in the end, the man did reach the top.
Friday June 2, 2006
A few gains in training today:
40 points. Normally for things like bar-dbl, or b/s-rudi, I’d be set the hollow skills to do for 40 points. Well, I did the first two choices (b/s T, bar P and bar S, b/s S), even getting a 10 on the first one! But then I got to do b/s P-rudi to a mat, a few jumps (after getting the mat out) and then again. A really quick way to get me to have a rudi go, and 3/5 were to feet completely! But even better was bar-dbl, well ok more exciting, because I’d love to be able to do 10 in a row of it. I can’t wait to be able to do doubles in a row either! I had to do bar, dbl tuck, and then 2-3 jumps before the next one. I had the mat held there, just in case. I landed the first one fine (to my shock!), next two crashed, but the last two fine. I really need to keep on trying to visualize and connecting the two skills properly. I told Sam that in my head, a barani-double back is like a roundoff, backhandspring – a fast, long and low connection. When in reality it is more like a round off, back sault, which has a round off which finishes, and then a punch into the air. I need to finish my barani, sink into the trampoline, look, wait, and then rise before I even start my double back. Problems with the barani P-dbl T in my vol need the same application: I was taking off for a double back still leaning over and low from not finishing the barani piked properly!
My vol. We had to do first 3, first 5, first 7, last 3, last 5, last 7 today. I did that (minus the HO and the FTB), even managed some rudis on the end of first 5!!! YAY!!!! It was good to finally start putting bits of a vol together and get them going, but what was better was that I kept on trying to make each bit better. And if I stacked a double back to my face (which I did), and the next one to my hands and knees, I got really determined to do it properly and land (and stay) on my feet. When I finally did get a last 5 to my feet, I was very happy.
Pit work – double front piked and double back piked. We had pit time today, and Sam asked Belinda what I was doing and it was “double fronts piked and double backs piked.” I was really surprised that I was onto double front piked! I know it is the next logical skill progression but I never imagined myself up to them. I was supposed to do some more half out tucks on tramp today but I didn’t get to. I was just surprised that then I didn’t do them into the pit. Anyway, the first three double front pikes were typical of what I’ve done before – between 630* (1 & 3) and 720* rotation, and as I’ve kicked out I’ve not had enough time or rotation to land standing so I’ve landed flatback. Belinda asked to see one, and I completely surprised myself by landing 100% on my feet! The next one wasn’t as great, but she just said that the first salto was very slow, and also that it was one very loose pike (or, “a long way to your knees when they’re all the way down there!,” meaning an insufficient pike). I am still not convinced that if I got up on the trampoline I would land these on my feet. I think less than 50% of the time at first. So they will have to get much better before I can start practicing half out pike, and the thought of doing that on tramp in a routine just scares me! Half out pike is just like a piked barani, but worse, because there’s MORE! Piked doubles seem to scare me – I just don’t get piked skills, and maybe just watching Ness do so many icky pike half outs (with a lack of extended kickout) has affected my bias. I could only imagine they’d then be the start of my routine.
Piked double backs, I only got to do one of. And it was not great – like the other horrid ones I have done. Which really bugs me, because they used to be nice. I will need to get to the pit sometime and just practice them – practice taking off, looking at the window and not going too far back/leaning back until I see my toes, and then just locking my legs straight. That’s the other thing that bugs me – I tend to not be able to do them with legs bent the same amount! Sheesh! At least have a neat form break…
I’ve mucked around in the pit a few times trying Arabians out. I’ve done Arabians to back, and then tucked them to stand, and then done a 1 ¼ (by mistake). I’d like to work on them and get them better so that I can start spinning fast at the right point so I could do half in 1 & 3. The half outs on tramp aren’t such a big deal anymore, and with this entry not being so difficult, the skill doesn’t seem to scare me. I think because I have done so many back 1/2s, the early turn-then-salto doesn’t affect me. It is just on take off where I will end up gaining the maximum travel. The take off is crucial: you need to turn so that you are not going into the somersault flat, but still rising over the top, and you need to start spinning not too early, but not too late.
Half outs. I have done a few on tramp, still probably less than 10. Some of them turn early, landing hands and knees, but then the rest are ok. It still is a little scary thinking when you are jumping “half out”, and then having to wait till you’ve somi’d long enough before you kick and turn. I still freak out that I will turn early. I hope I can learn these super neat – I have the take off nicely done, a firm press and set, and a good “attack” like Belinda says (and then says “I wish you’d attack all your other skills the same way you do your double fronts”) and I’ve even found when I point my toes, the salto goes faster (feels like a triff looks too), and I can kick out neater. Anyway, I want to learn them perfect (like the nice kickout that Bethany/Jason/Michael/Blake do), have my toes held back, so I can learn ½ out-dbl tuck for my vol. In my mind and logically, they will probably be the first combination of doubles I learn. My double back needs LOTS of work in my attitude towards it, both in the lack of kickout, but that comes secondary at the moment to the need to finish the skill, and then lift up into the next one properly. The way I do it now, there is no chance that I could land double back-double front, even.
I’d also like to try 1 jump-double front, and see how far I can get, and work on 1 jump double backs.
I have not worked on full twist backs in a while. I need to get this skill consistent, I need to have barani-FTB right, and I need to just be forced to do it almost. It’s a problem that it has been a year and I still don’t have them consistently like before. I don’t have enough time in training with all the skills that I am working on for extra skill learning time; I need to figure out what it is I do wrong and how to fix it.
I think I also should film some training too, both for my enjoyment and friends/family, but also to see what I do and what I am needing to work on. I really want to see what my straight skills look like, and what my doubles and rudi look like. Having recently just lost the rudi (briefly for one training I just spazzed out), and then getting it back first go next training, I’d like to get my legs permanently together and straight arms! Maybe I am creating a list for myself to do at veterans…I did straight back, rudi today for the first time and it was fine. It is good to have them back; I should just practice a few more off DMT so that I can be extra prepared for the landing (visually, mentally sorted) so the back sault after is fine. I have done b/s-rudi-b/s; I just am a bit anxious after hurting my knee. But time, practice and perseverance will help me.
Strength and body wise. I have really been struggling cardio-vascularly, mainly I suppose because my fitness has just faded with quitting running and not keeping up with my visits to the gym. I have started running again, which is great, and also means I am rediscovering muscles I didn’t realize hadn’t been conditioned in so long!!! (Like all my ankle ligaments – owwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeee! They hurt at training the next time!) Running is helping me shed some fat which I’ve gained (I had an, erm, “big break” after comp season finished), but only a tiny bit so far. That’s ok, because I don’t plan on stopping running any time soon! I want it as a habit for life, now that I’ve realized I can do it again and not break... I’ve also been trying to work hard at my strength these last few weeks. After injuring my knee, I did so much strength in rehab, but when I went back into training I just didn’t keep it up, and so all the strength I gained I just lost again. I’ve been trying to push myself, trying to attain basic standards – things like being able to do 40 Vsnaps or pushups. I’m working (again) towards trying to be able to do a kip, so the things I need to be able to do well and consistently are leg lifts, chin ups, Vsnaps, and other assorted strength. I can swing a chinup (lifting the last little bit); I hope that I can work on it enough so that I can do chin ups from hang by the end of the term.
When I will retire is a funny thing. I am glad I stuck around this year: I definitely didn’t feel ready or like it was ‘time’ to give it up then. I wanted to kick those rudi’s and I definitely would have missed it. I did, however, go into this year much wiser. I was cautious in setting nationals as a goal, because I knew how hard it would be and how much work it would require. And purely due to the timing of it, how unlikely it would be. The knee injury really proved it, but as well now, a month out from nationals, I am only working on a routine with 7.1DD. Sure, the double pike could replace the double tuck and I’d be there, and the double tuck the back sault tuck, and I’d get 7.8DD, but still not enough neatness or control or knowing in all of that. I don’t ever want to go to nationals knowing I will bomb or doubting my ability; I want to be strong and confident. I want to know that I am worthy of being there, and that I have my place with my fellow NSW team-mates (who currently are all kicking my butt in terms of difficulty. Hell, even ***** and ***** are constantly!). So New Zealand is the goal. And winning the 17+ individual trampoline title is the dream. COACH made a reference to “thinking about the set routine so for next year’s nationals” and I kind of laughed in my head at it. I have not thought about sticking around next year. I would love to qualify for nationals, but it is such a long time away. In reality, I could finish after New Zealand (because they have moved State RSLs – better not be August 13 because that is the City to Surf – to August) and there is a State Levels Comp, which I don’t see the large value in sticking around for, especially after three weeks off and having then to compete the next weekend! And well! I would consider it more if it were State RSLs – I would hope to be able to compete Open (a dream I’ve always had) and help out our club, to win the title. However, if I stayed I’d have a lot of time to learn new skills, so to compete probably a minimum of three doubles at the qualifying comps next year. But I think I’d only stick around if I thought I had a chance of making the worlds team. And that’s a BIG ask. But there are also some big skills I could see myself working on, like rudi outs (they would be AWESOME to do I think), and HIHO. It would be really gratifying to all my technical and mental knowledge if I could start to put it together more in routines. I watch international elites and I am just amazed at how they can keep going, even if they land incorrectly or low – they just seem to find the way back. Surely there is a reward in there somewhere for someone like me who craves knowing the detail of getting better, and being mentally aware of every aspect of the sport.
Sheesh. What HAVEN'T I said? (If my coaches/team-mates have found this page - I am going to run and hide - just take it with a grain of salt, and feel free to discuss it with me)